red shoes cinderella syndrome

you wake up on this narrow leather couch in this perfect huge house with glass doors and leather armchairs you look around and see the remote controls and the big window,
oh canada waters canada waters, thames is bigger than u knew it when u look outside, it's like the house is on a deck the house is big but you are cold
it seems it is impossible to sleep in a bed or get a blanket in such a big fancy house
omg you miss your little green marker
the kid went to the bathroom he is probably puking and you look at the perfect glass doors and perfect glass tables and the tv in the corner, and at the leather armchair with another leather armchair in front of it to keep ur feet up,
ur only concern is not to loose ur earing the golden heart u found in hyde park,
u know it's loose, it's already off, you pick it up from the couch, put it on, take your shoes and jacket and run. close the doors. on the entrance stairs there are some elegant women's red shoes, u are sorry u didn't take ur camera, three big red pairs of shoes on the first three steps size 40
its 7 o'clock in the morning the air is cold and u walk fast look at the houses, there is a rich area near canada waters, with a walking pier, looks strange, perfectly still, cars are parked, people asleep, lots of big glass doors and interior stairs,
big cars and perfect gardens,
walk and feel trapped, walk and feel one more time that shit in your chest asking you what CAN you do, what should you do, all these are there and they won't change, people just won't change and you are powerless in front of everything the big red houses who are like so material so strong and big with their big perfect door glasses, wtf can u do with or without your little green marker, this is really like a big joke, cherry gardens and another walking pier,
oh canada waters you just talked to me this morning through your perfect red shoes, and then walk and walk and walk,
some guy walks with you and tries to convince yo to be his "babymother",
he decides to respect your choice not to be the mother of his children, his name is victor and he is a nice guy until he decides that you can be his first true love,
then he stops to pee near a wall, and you run away one more time, get the bus and go home
i have the cinderella syndrome my friends told me