what you see and what you hear

he grabs me by the hair and says- we have to see eachother. i'm not good. then i meet another friend near the elevator in TNB - how are you? i ask. i'm not good. i am really bad.

we drink vodka, me and another friend, in this empty grey bar, after saying goodbye 2 a friend who left her kid at home wth her father to run out nd see some theatre at the theatre night, and watched this crppy performnce wth a guy bangin his dick in a choreogrphy about alienation. we talk bout another friend who was convinced by his parents that he has schizofrenia so he decided to have a cure wth 4 tabs of LSD, and then the holy spirit got into him and turned him from gay to straight, showed him the right way. the holy spirit aprently comes quite often here in the land of the desperate.

also i hear about a young girl who fell from the mountin on precipice and died.

i dream about an actress i worked with who falls in a lake and dies.

also i see a performance by carmen cotofana, "stage psychosis", at cndb

and she screams and screms and screams and when she screams i feel good
this is cndb.